Always remember, the present is merely temporary.

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We had Chinese food in study hall.

I got signed out afterword just so I could purge.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Momentary good mood, ruined.

I hate wanting something so badly and failing.

Oh on the plus side, I got nominated as National Honor Society President.

It’s amazing how I live such a double life and nobody knows the actuality of it.

I really need to start precalc, but I just feel too sick.

I can’t miss anymore school though, two field trips in a row kind of killed me.

I’m kind of stressing. I also have a funeral on Thursday, so there’s another days worth of homework. Which I know is incredibly selfish to think. I’m sorry.

I just need organization. 

French: Test is coming up.

Precalc: Like 300 problems

American Lit: Read a raisin in the sun and write notes, answer the questions, and make a chart.

Human A&P: Don’t know.

Study Hall: Haven’t attended which is KILLING ME

Advanced Lit Survey: Macbeth test Thursday- need to get the notes- and I have to read Wuthering Heights.

History: Some packet.

Okay, awesome. :/

Weekly whine.

I’m so overwhelmed. I’ve just been hit with a lot lately.

1. My dad’s best friend since the age of 2 just died. He was just so destructive and I hate seeing my dad in such terrible mourning.
2. As of now, it looks like I’ll be packing up and moving my entire life to Arizona. I’ve been in the same school district since I was in preschool. I’ve lived in the same house basically my whole life, I don’t know anything else. 
3. My childhood best friend, whom used to live with us, is missing. At the end of the month, him, his twin, and their parents where supposed to move back in with us because their house was getting foreclosed on. But now he’s missing. 
4. My older brother and my mother finally reunited after 10 years. Which was just emotional in itself. Add that with the usual teenage angst and stress then BOOM, you have me.